Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Emotional Chaos

When the sky is gloomy, dark with thunderclouds
Simple conversations with you were my solace
You were my sky full of stars
And a heart full of hope

Like a bird clipped of its wings
Land devastated after a Tsunami
Dense bushes after a forest fire
You have left me with a tattered soul

Memories surprise me with their lightning bolts
Hiding in the shadows and pouncing unexpected
They knock me out and stop the world around me
And shatters the rhythm of my ordinary life’s magic

Lyrics have a completely different meaning now
Shards of glass pierce and shred me
I cannot fathom which I am missing the most
the best friend in you or my solace of a rainy day?

How could we harm our friendship?
Head bowed in shame, I know not what to do
Unable to look at my eyes in the mirror
I loathe myself.

Breaking inside every moment
burying myself in guilt, Insanity grips me tight
In the confines of my loneliness, I scream in silence
While images of a happy decade fade into oblivion.

Vincy Joseph


  1. Ramesh3:43 AM

    Oh No. Is it still that bad. You need more than a big hug.

    Maybe this will help.

    Isaiah 41:10

    So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

  2. First time ever i started with this blog, I broke into tears, reading your comment. Yes it is bad, but the tears help in healing.

    And the verses Ramesh, aren;t they so reassuring?

    Thank you for the comforting words - I needed them desperately.

  3. Aww.. Vincy...Big hugs to you I totally totally understand this.. I have gone through this and still miss my bestest friend.. reached out many times but no respite.. well I am glad you cried reading Mr. Ramesh's comment, it helps, tears.. they help. take care

  4. Thank you Rekha. I never realised the power of virtual space and how it can bring in bonding, friendships and most of healing.

    You are part of my healing process and I am ever grateful for your understanding.

  5. aiaio..unga mood theriama naan vera mokka post potu vachiruken..padichitu gaand aagidatheenga :)
    mokkais apart...coping with loss..of anything/anyone we love is impossible to adjust. like they all say..this too shall pass


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